That is the quote at the begining of the soap opera "Days of our Lives." These days it seems that the hour glass to my life is dropping one grain of sand per day, things are going so slowly, but at the same time it feels like the things i used to hold so close to me are slipping right through my hands and i can't get a grib on anything that i want to keep. The old friends and my old hobbies are all fading away left as a memory. I miss the feeling of being carefree. Now I carry a burden of trying to not be a burden to anyone else. I don't want to be dependant on anyone but i've found that's nearly impossible to do at the age of fifteen. I wish I had the sense of security I had when I was younger. I wish I wasn't in too deep, giving my all to a person that would never return that same amount of full hearted love. I wish I wasn't so easily blinded by perfection. I wish that I could find more happiness in simple things without having to constantly seek more satisfaction. I am a hypocrite; I say I wish that everyone could find the beauty and perfection in things around them when I can't even see it in myself. If I don't get a grip on the things of my past I need to keep, get a grip on how i'm living my life in the present, and set reachable goals for the future I will keep crying every night before I go to sleep and driving my close friends farther and farther away from me with my constant drifting away.
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