What can i say?

Since the last time I posted almost everything has changed.
I don't have a working computer at the moment so to get on I have to get onto whoevers computer I can when I can.
I recently turned sixteen and to my disappointment I didn't feel some huge physical and emotional change burst over me at the moment the clock turned to 12:00 on April 9th. I did take a step back as I blew out my candles and thought about the wishes, goals, and expectations I held for myself over this coming year. After a long weekend of eye opening events and the following weekend used as a time for reflection I began to see how my young life was folding out and the transformation from a mere child to a young adult wasn't as easy or pleasant as I had wished for. Through loosing the ones closest to me and having the people I saw as genuine friends completely change I've realized how important it is to separate the true friends from the "friends." I can hangout and party with people every weekend, but that doesn't define the person I am. It also doesn't mean that they are my best friends, that i trust them fully, or that they're going to be a part of my life for the rest of my life. I'm happy to see the people around me moving on to bigger and better things, and maybe I am the one that is moving on too but I do miss some things in my life. I pray daily for the strength to be optimistic, forgiving, and find myself and the right people to surround myself with. Hopefully over this next year I can do those things. Until those are complete I appreciate the positive support I get from the positive people around me.
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