I'd never changed middle schools. I would have went to mountain gap and the grissom or Huntsville high. I would have never became friends with my best friends, I would have never started going to carousel and met all those people, and I wouldn't be anything like i am now. I'm not saying that my life would not have been good if I'd grown up that way, but it sure would be a lot different. I'm so happy with who I've become. It's not close to perfect but I'm getting better and better.
so if you're in my life I'm very thankful for you, whether you've impacted my entire life or we barely know each other.
i love you all<3
Saturday, March 14, 2009
does true love really exist?
i need to know that it's possible for someone to stay in love forever.
I personally think the only way a long term relationship or marriage will happily work is if both partners are in love the exact same amount.
If the girl is in love with the boy but he isn't he will know he has WAY more control and she'll put more effort into the relationship than he does and he'll push her away to a certain extint and eventually she'll see what's happening and get tired of being a under so much control.
If the boy is in love but the girl isn't it will be pretty much the same situation except the other way around. The girl will play the guy and make him feel like he isn't needed eventually, most of the time guys just don't show how much power women have over them besides the sexual control.
I think that even a slight off balance in this can cause the relationship to go down hill because over time one of them is going to get tired of pretending or the other one will get tired of putting so much effort forth.
i don't even know why i'm rambling about this i just need to realize that love is more complex than what meets the eye but not out of reach.
I personally think the only way a long term relationship or marriage will happily work is if both partners are in love the exact same amount.
If the girl is in love with the boy but he isn't he will know he has WAY more control and she'll put more effort into the relationship than he does and he'll push her away to a certain extint and eventually she'll see what's happening and get tired of being a under so much control.
If the boy is in love but the girl isn't it will be pretty much the same situation except the other way around. The girl will play the guy and make him feel like he isn't needed eventually, most of the time guys just don't show how much power women have over them besides the sexual control.
I think that even a slight off balance in this can cause the relationship to go down hill because over time one of them is going to get tired of pretending or the other one will get tired of putting so much effort forth.
i don't even know why i'm rambling about this i just need to realize that love is more complex than what meets the eye but not out of reach.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
if i could truly hate someone...
it would be you, no doubt in my mind.
i'd rip you apart one piece at a time.
i hope you overdose, i hope you cry.
i hope the drugs eat away your mind.
the good and the bad will no longer reside in your memory
your mind, a sphere, that just becomes your enemy.
cold and alone is how you spend your old age
thinking of the way things could've been changed.
one day you'll regret it, you'll open your eyes and see
the person you could've turned out to be.
i'd rip you apart one piece at a time.
i hope you overdose, i hope you cry.
i hope the drugs eat away your mind.
the good and the bad will no longer reside in your memory
your mind, a sphere, that just becomes your enemy.
cold and alone is how you spend your old age
thinking of the way things could've been changed.
one day you'll regret it, you'll open your eyes and see
the person you could've turned out to be.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
To make you feel for me how i feel for you, for a day, would blow you away, that's all i'm gonna say.
I'm VERY satisfied with the way things are going. The new years resolutions I made a few days ago are seeming to work out for the better. I find myself complaining alot less and finding more positives in the midst of all the negativity in this world. I've let go of so much that was holding me back. I'm more independant now and I love it.
I miss things, I miss my old close friends, I miss constant stability.
I love the new me and the direction I'm heading in A LOT more.
love everyone<3
I'm VERY satisfied with the way things are going. The new years resolutions I made a few days ago are seeming to work out for the better. I find myself complaining alot less and finding more positives in the midst of all the negativity in this world. I've let go of so much that was holding me back. I'm more independant now and I love it.
I miss things, I miss my old close friends, I miss constant stability.
I love the new me and the direction I'm heading in A LOT more.
love everyone<3
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
the way you make me feel
is like the best roller coaster i've ever experienced.
But like all rides eventually you start to get a little motion sick.
I thought I knew what it was all about; I was wrong.
I thought I knew exactly what I was getting into; I had no idea.
I expected it to be so much different; I underestimated it all.
But like all rides eventually you start to get a little motion sick.
I thought I knew what it was all about; I was wrong.
I thought I knew exactly what I was getting into; I had no idea.
I expected it to be so much different; I underestimated it all.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
New Years resolutions just alittle late.
So i am aware that it is March 1st but who says you can't have new years resolutions in the middle of the year?
the first couple months as most people know weren't that great but looking back knowing what i know now i would have changed my outlook on everything that was happening and i'm sure it would have been A LOT better, and that is what is leading me to my 2009 resoluions. The first major thing, i will stop having such a negative attitude towards everything (even if they aren't going exactly how i'd like). I will also solve problems in a calm manner, strive to be more optimistic, and work on my personal relationships with everyone around me. When i've been so down and whiny i didn't realize how self centered i became. Now that i've realized this i know that i have to move on with my life and try to better myself everyday. Everyone hears people say "don't live in the past" and i didn't see that's what i was doing but obviously it was and i will try to stop living that way. Everyday is a new day, and with every new day i have an opportuniy to be a better person than i was the day before. Just because i've had a pretty bad last two months doesn't mean that i can't make this year the best one of my life. That's what i plan on doing. I can't wait to see how everything turns out.
<3
the first couple months as most people know weren't that great but looking back knowing what i know now i would have changed my outlook on everything that was happening and i'm sure it would have been A LOT better, and that is what is leading me to my 2009 resoluions. The first major thing, i will stop having such a negative attitude towards everything (even if they aren't going exactly how i'd like). I will also solve problems in a calm manner, strive to be more optimistic, and work on my personal relationships with everyone around me. When i've been so down and whiny i didn't realize how self centered i became. Now that i've realized this i know that i have to move on with my life and try to better myself everyday. Everyone hears people say "don't live in the past" and i didn't see that's what i was doing but obviously it was and i will try to stop living that way. Everyday is a new day, and with every new day i have an opportuniy to be a better person than i was the day before. Just because i've had a pretty bad last two months doesn't mean that i can't make this year the best one of my life. That's what i plan on doing. I can't wait to see how everything turns out.
<3
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