But you're only right about one thing.
yes, when i'm around them it's like starting from ground one. It rebuilds the memories, it gives me hope, it gives me the desire to push harder, to wake up again, to stay myself and not turn into a person that finds pleasure in nothing more than food, cigarettes, and the little computer in front of me.
Why is that wrong? How is that a problem?
You say I'm no individual but if i'm not then why was a born by myself and not born as a parasite living inside "my host" I wake up, I used to wake up and rage, now I wake up in rage. It's a fight everyday between keeping true to myself when everyone here is against it or just giving up, falling into what you want. Then how much of an individual would I be?
If you knew how far I'd go or how far they'd go for me, not the false unhappy me, then you'd change your perception. Until then keep thiking I'm weak, keep thinking I'll do nothing with my life, keep thinking my friends aren't as close as my family and don't treat me as such...
13 months and counting for it to just be a bad memory.
